This year has sped by. So many things that were on my radar to do but yet for one reason or another I have not gotten to them. My writing is one that I have chosen to let take the back seat. It has been an interesting journey this year. I know that I have been called to write. To stop & see what God has for me in it. To choose to let it be a part of who I am, to invest in it – not ignore it. I wonder what stops me from working on it? I think it is my pride.
As a leader, my pride is something that Jesus has brought before me to be brought in check. It’s easy to see ourselves as the only solution. To think that we are the ones suited to do something best, but how is that being a servant. It is not. I think I let my pride also rear its in head in keeping me from trying things because I choose to let fear of others reactions and responses dictate what I should be doing. Or I see how far others are and believe I will never get there. None of these ways that pride shows up is good. They both take Jesus out of being the center and following Him and place me in the center.
Learning to follow Jesus means I learn.
I learn to listen to His small voice.
I learn to be flexible.
I learn to be stretched.
I learn to grow.
I learn its not all about me.
“Cause me to hear your lovingkindness in the morning, for in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You.“
Psalms 143:8 NKJV
“Cause me to” this phrase grabs my senses. Its not something that I do but God does for me. I want to see Him at work in me, drawing me near to Him.
Cause me to have…..
Curiosity for what Jesus is doing.
Boldness to share what He is doing in my life.
Courage to act.
Courage to live out what He has called me to do.
Courage to lead right where I am.
Cause me to hear and to know Jesus’…
To walk where Jesus walks. To follow Jesus so closely that when I stumble I stumble right into Him.